I am human just like everyone else...
Just because I have this gift and I understand my own spiritual path, doesn't mean I don't have my human reactions to life just like everyone else... I freak out, cry, worry, and sometimes get angry... Hey don't judge it's only human of me... I can't help but worry about things so materialistic like money, I have a family that includes 4 little girls that I have to feed and clothe and on Long Island it's tough and expensive... In the end I always have enough, and I am extremely thankful for that... When I am upset I cry, when those who pass around me I cry and get sad, even though I know what I do I cry for their physical passing and for those who don't get to see what I do...
My gift is something that is with me all the time, yet it is something I am blessed to be able to set aside so that I am able to have normal conversations with others without being interrupted by a spirit... I am grateful for that because I don't want others to think that when they are having a conversation with me I am trying to read them... I usually say don't worry it's off, I ask to be respected by the energies around me... I worked at the hospital I would often see and hear things, plenty was kept to myself but I was very respected by the energy and the spirits around me I never felt overwhelmed or stressed by a spirit... I like to believe as long as I am respectful of the energy around me (living and non) they will respect me in return...
We all have intuition, some of you are a good judge of character and some are just a great judge of people... I have an amazing intuition, yet my human self often leads me to ignore it... I like to believe in people, I like to believe that someone who talks to me and tells me things are being completely truthful to me... I get those little feelings during a conversation with someone but I ignore it, I always no matter what try to the good in everyone... It is when the negative energy and negative situations present itself to my human self that I stop, and that is what I will do.. When I get to a point where I know that someone in my life is a negative energy or draining my positive energy I stop all contact with them.. I leave them where they belong, in my past... It really doesn't matter who they are to me either, I look at it as a spiritual stand point... We are around others for spiritual reasons, and it is usually to help our spiritual energy in positive ways, not to bring one another down with negativity and drama... It is hard for me to walk away from others I held so dear to me, but doing what I do I have to be careful of the energy around me...
I will keep my spirit full of positivity!